death

what's more terrifying than a death?
is it the way you realize that you don't have anyone anymore?
is it the way you realize that you're all alone in this big and scary world?
is it the way that people forget you?
is it the way that people think that you don't exist?
is it the way that you feeling like you're the biggest loser?
is it the way that people will hate you?
is it the way that people would judge you by a little mistake?
is it the wat that people forget all about your kindness?
is it the way that people left because they found somebody new?
is it the way that people forget about every single things about you?
is it the way that all you left is just such a pathetic story?
but then, they said death is peaceful
and life is tiring
i don't know which one to choose.